Before the Holidays Update

Life. Life is such a fickle unpredictable thing, isn't it?

I ended up quitting Wal-Mart. I would come home feeling worthless and emotionally scarred every day. I had 3x the work load I should have. Management didn't care about the situation at hand, and would rather tell me how I could change to make another person who was CAUSING the problems happier. I wasn't getting my breaks. Blah Blah. I know, that's every job. It's especially every job in food/retail. That line of work takes a lot of emotional strength. I found myself stuck in a constant state of helpless rage (pardon me for quoting Ra.) But I really felt like I was in a cage. I could have lived with it though, I've lived with worse jobs for longer.

IE, Pawsitive Energy, LLC. Btw, any pet owners in central Ohio, DO NOT board your dogs there. Some of the workers are okay, but the reason I quit there was because the OWNER, held a puppy down on the cement floor and shook it. That's inexcusable and I hope to see the place shut down in the very near future. Or Bueno, where sexual harassment was a daily routine. Boy, do I know how to pick jobs, huh? And I don't get offended very easily, so when I say harassment, let me tell you, it would make some of the sicker rapists and pedophiles blush. (The sexual stuff actually not ending up not being the reason why I quit. I about stuck a guys head in a deep fryer. We've all thought about it, I almost did it. He was like... two inches away. Yeah, Erick, never told you about that. I have one word for you: Darin. Understand now?) But the thing that took the cake... I got a D in a photography class because I simply did not have the time to do the assignments. I am a MONTH behind in my graphics class. Fortunately the teacher is letting me turn in the six late assignments by this Saturday for partial credit. He said I wouldn't get the A I was working on before I fell behind, but at least I wouldn't all out fail.

So, with all the stress and turmoil from work (which, honestly, was typical work stuff) added in with I was falling behind in school, I decided to take leave of the place known to me as Suck-ville or Hell. And Wal-mart is that, Hell on Earth. I found out that while I got a D in my photography class I don't have to retake it. I still the get the credit and since it was an elective, it doesn't affect my other classes. I need to get caught up in graphics, and I have a quiz AND test today in Math.

Good thing about Math... I'm getting an A. Yeah, me, who loathes mathematics with every fiber of her being, is getting an A in math. Who'd've thunk it? Which is good, because I registered for my next Math class next quarter. Math 103, Graph 110, and Engl 111. Yes, the advanced English class, although I'm certainly not using remotely proper grammar in this post. I can write very well if I sit down and do it.

So school and work is out of the way. Friends and love. I feel like I've been falling away from my friends. I don't really have a lot of time for them anymore. I mean, I talk to the people who play Dofus with me, but people like Zachy, Erick, Alyson, Rob, Jes, Bobby (my sir Pyro), and others have been getting neglected. If any of you bother to read this at all, I am very sorry, and am going to be making the effort to rectify this situation as soon as possible. I need to make more time for all of you and for myself to do things I want to do rather than what I just need to do. Look for me face-time in the future.

Chris and I are doing well. We are taking things one step at a time and taking our sweet time with everything. We aren't in a big rush for anything, we're still young and have our whole lives ahead of us. We've been at each other's throats a little bit lately, but I think that is primarily due to the mounting stress from my chaotic-ness.

Oh, yeah, and I have this viral infection. A very fun little infection that I can't get rid of. I've had it for like a month, and the doctor has given me antibiotics and steriods and I still can't rid of it. Fun stuff.

Pippin and Ginny are doing great. Pippin has gotten so big, he's almost full grown. Chris got a kitten that he named Agnine. We're having normal kitten-like problems with her, but hopefully she'll behave herself.

I'm going to be gone for a couple of weeks during December. We'll be home for Christmas, it'll be nice to finally spend a Christmas here. It's been what, 3 years?

Yeah, boring update, but there you go. This is life in the slow lane.

Life is dark and dreary. Death is worse.

So, I swear I am about to hit my breaking point. I don't know how much more I can take of life right now. It's just so much stress for me to bear. I knew moving to Ohio wouldn't make things 100% better, but I had hoped that at least I would get a reprieve from all the crap I had to deal with in Missouri. I was wrong.

Firstly, I've been dealing with the Erick and Alyson thing. Don't get me wrong, I love Erick to death and will help him in anyway possible. But Alyson adds a whole new level of stress into my life that you don't even know. She is lying, manipulative, impulsive, doesn't care about anyone but herself. Basically, we're bouncing between the therory that she either has Antisocial Personality Disorder or is a sociopath. Neither one of which is a very good option. Neither one of which is curable. And both of which usually leads down a very scary road which ends in three possible ways: incarsseration in a corrections facility, permanent hospitalization, or death. I'd like to think she's just a horrible person and spoiled to boot and that's why she acts the way she does. But I can't ignore the signs. There's something obviously wrong with her, and I know this from observing her in person, and not what a website or textbook says. And the sad thing is, now that she and Bryan got back together, he is going to lead her down this road and make her destruction occur so much faster than it would have normally. I hate to tell Erick that all we can really do is sit back and watch her self-destruct, but sadly, that's all we CAN do.

Bryan. Bah, won't someone just kill him already? I thought I was free of him. But alas, no. Little background information: My yahoo is retarded. I can't block people. No matter what I do, I can't block them. It's infuriating. Anyway, I thought Alyson was messaging me. It turned out not to be Alyson. It was really Bryan. I made a comment that it was pathetic if that was really Bryan, that if he so desperately wanted to talk to me he could use his name and let me decide if I wanted to talk to him or not. He took that as: Start IMing me. NO. I hate you. I hate you with the passion of a thousand hell-fires. Why would I want to talk to you? All he does is lie. For instance: Erick didn't want him to have his phone number. He got it off Alyson. Has called/texted it. And lied to me about it. Uhm, I can check and see, you know? Whatever, I don't care, he just wants to stay in my life and I want him out of it.

On top of this, I am trying to figure out how I am going to juggle work and school, and do my online class when I have no internet. I'm fighting with a creditor for a credit card bill I owe. And freaking out about how I am going to pay it. It's just... sigh. It's all little stuff, but it's all adding up really fast. Oh well. What can you do?