Life is dark and dreary. Death is worse.

So, I swear I am about to hit my breaking point. I don't know how much more I can take of life right now. It's just so much stress for me to bear. I knew moving to Ohio wouldn't make things 100% better, but I had hoped that at least I would get a reprieve from all the crap I had to deal with in Missouri. I was wrong.

Firstly, I've been dealing with the Erick and Alyson thing. Don't get me wrong, I love Erick to death and will help him in anyway possible. But Alyson adds a whole new level of stress into my life that you don't even know. She is lying, manipulative, impulsive, doesn't care about anyone but herself. Basically, we're bouncing between the therory that she either has Antisocial Personality Disorder or is a sociopath. Neither one of which is a very good option. Neither one of which is curable. And both of which usually leads down a very scary road which ends in three possible ways: incarsseration in a corrections facility, permanent hospitalization, or death. I'd like to think she's just a horrible person and spoiled to boot and that's why she acts the way she does. But I can't ignore the signs. There's something obviously wrong with her, and I know this from observing her in person, and not what a website or textbook says. And the sad thing is, now that she and Bryan got back together, he is going to lead her down this road and make her destruction occur so much faster than it would have normally. I hate to tell Erick that all we can really do is sit back and watch her self-destruct, but sadly, that's all we CAN do.

Bryan. Bah, won't someone just kill him already? I thought I was free of him. But alas, no. Little background information: My yahoo is retarded. I can't block people. No matter what I do, I can't block them. It's infuriating. Anyway, I thought Alyson was messaging me. It turned out not to be Alyson. It was really Bryan. I made a comment that it was pathetic if that was really Bryan, that if he so desperately wanted to talk to me he could use his name and let me decide if I wanted to talk to him or not. He took that as: Start IMing me. NO. I hate you. I hate you with the passion of a thousand hell-fires. Why would I want to talk to you? All he does is lie. For instance: Erick didn't want him to have his phone number. He got it off Alyson. Has called/texted it. And lied to me about it. Uhm, I can check and see, you know? Whatever, I don't care, he just wants to stay in my life and I want him out of it.

On top of this, I am trying to figure out how I am going to juggle work and school, and do my online class when I have no internet. I'm fighting with a creditor for a credit card bill I owe. And freaking out about how I am going to pay it. It's just... sigh. It's all little stuff, but it's all adding up really fast. Oh well. What can you do?